Depression Hurts…The Commercial is True

How do I begin…
When I first saw the Cymbalta commercial years ago, I did not fully understand.
Now I do. Life has lots of hills and valleys. The usual highs and lows.

I just did not realize how strong an emotion like depression can debilitate a once happy,  content human being.

When the domino of crushing events happen, one cannot help and falter. Like me….
I’m only human with lots of flaws. That’s life right?

I have been diagnosed with depression.  I have bouts of manic behaviour.  I even have episodes of bipolar activity.
I’m still taking tests and being evaluated.
I go from A to Z in one second. From rage to sadness;  shopping to buyer’s remorse.

It’s a civil war inside. No one is winning.

And what adds more fuel is abusive treatment at my workplace.
I’ve been searching for new work for over a year. My disappointment only deepens my depression. I am unhappy in every aspect of my life.

Sadly,  even my fiancee cannot lift me up.

I do hope that you are all well out there.
I do not wish these emotions on anyone.

But right now these emotions are mine. I need to work to heal.

One of the many situations one must overcome.

Okay now…writing this has made me feel overwhelmed inside myself.

I must stop.
Until next time…be well.

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